being in love

aiyo.. fan siahx. today ar. quite ok lor. hai. come back from sch, tio scolding from my mom. dunno wads wrong wif her. now adays keep scolding me. i sometimes realli buai tahan lor. hai. after that went to samsung dunno wad centre. go repair my hp. something wrong wif the light. i wait dere v long lor. about to fall aslp. and i was super hungry. after bout 2 hours plus. they say repair hao le. but they never solve the problem lor! after that they change something + repair it. and most of the things in my hp was lost! after that went to eat. went to jurong east dere. wanted to collect my spare battery. but haven come. they ask me go back on fri. than my bro ask me go starhub. subscribe the dunno wad thing. is something to do wif the internet de. but the shop close liao. i call my bro tell him shop close liao. he scolded me. ><'' say y i never go earlier. not i dun wan go earlier lor. is i bobian lehx. today dunno how many ppl scold me liao le lor. hai.

ytd my house got blackout. haha. quite fun larx. is yi pian hei an. than i still need to study bout 4 chapts of hist. actually today got test de. so i was holding the touchlight and reading it. holding those type of small small fan also. haha. too warm le. cannot tahan. and also listening to radio! hehe. it was about 10.15 when it blacked-out. and resume at bout almost 12. study until 2am siahx. super sleepy. this morning cant wake up. and during hist period. mrs toh say postponed test to next wed. i was like...><''..argh~ but nvm. at least no test today mahx. haha.

tml got co. though i want to play my cello. but still v sian larx. during co. i realli is bo bian have to face him. combine pract he sitting so near to me. want to duo also cannot duo. sian.

feel v fan now larx. v tired. hai. in my heart, i feel v lonely. i dunno y. like noboday care bout me or to share my probs wif. i hate this type of feeling. but i cant do anything bout it. hai. dunno y i have to face soooo many probs. as if not enuff for this year like that. super tired lor. would realli like to rest. but..i cant. hai.

think this song v nice. something like what i am feeling/thinking now. say it isn't so by Gareth Gates.

Say It Isn't So

Skies are dark it's time for rain
Final call you board the train
Heading for tomorrow
I wave goodbye to yesterdays
Wipe the tears you hide your face
Blinded by the sorrow

How can I be smiling like before
When baby, you don't love me anymore

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

Ten to five atleast we tried
We're still alive but hope just died
As they close the door behind you
Whistle blows and tons of steel
Shake the ground beneth the wheels
As I wish I never found you

How can I be smiling when you're gone
Will I be strong enough to carry on

Miles and miles to go before I can say,
Before I can lay my love for you to sleep
Oh, darling oh
I got miles and miles togo
Before anyone will ever hear
Me laugh again

take care everyone.

Tuesday, June 29, 2004

6/29/2004 06:40:00 PM

hai. this few days hor. everybody mood all so bad. everybody. and i mean everybody. hai. so sian lor. dun feel like going to sch now. nth to look forward to..maybe except pe. hai. sian sian de.

today.. i like kept being left alone. i dunno y. but forget it. hai. lessons still quite ok. but i feel v sleepy. haha. after school. hannah they all say they need to bring me to his class. he want to talk to me. but i didn't want to go. so they pull me. than she signal to him to come up. actually i want to escape by going down by the stairs de. but..so qiao. saw him. my first reaction was to run. so there i was running. wif sherlyn. we ran the whole round of the 3rd floor. ><'' actually want to go down by the other staircase. but miss koh down dere. so bo bian. we run towards the toilet. and guess wad? we saw him dere again. ><'' yalor. so weird siahx. ran one whole round. and still met him again. i told him jux now le. that i dun wan all this thing now. but.. he.. aiya.. dunno how to say. i feel v irritated by him lor. so fan. hai. forget it.

Monday, June 28, 2004

6/28/2004 11:41:00 PM

wah.. school re-open le. today.. not v good. at first tot mr mazlee never come de. so we sit at concourse. but after awhile. he came. ask us to go back to class. first thing in class is the change of sitting arrangement. now i sitting by the back door. shuang!~ haha. but hor. sit dere v sian de. so few ppl to talk to. hai. than during lessons time i v sleepy. cos v sian. some teachers start to teach liao. than xin yi message me. ask me to meet her after sch to give her the cover. during recess. our mood all v bad lor. so... i dunno how to say. but everybody not in a good mood jiu dui le. after sch we got tan yi tan. didn't realli go smoothly. after that we still got seperate ways... tot want to go together? y suddenly go seperate ways again. ><'' hai.. nvm. after that talk to miss koh. went to eat at the canteen. talk to chin hong and junsheng. came home after that. and i slept. haha.

Sunday, June 27, 2004

6/27/2004 09:09:00 PM

hmmx.. tml sch re-open liao. so fast. one month over le. lots of things have changed. hai. nvm. dun feel like going to sch tml. sian sian de.

kor ar kor.. y now adays u like so listless de? like so not happy. i dunno y. cos u never tell me the reason. u used to be so lively. full of energy like that. but now.. hai. i also dunno how to say. she me shi also dun tell me. everything also dun share wif me. hai. dunno what u been doing also. hai. nvm larx. u choose not to tell me mahx. didn't tell u anything bout this. cos i dun wan to add more burden to u since u already so bu kai xin le. all i can say is u tc k. cheer up ar.

take care everyone.

Saturday, June 26, 2004

6/26/2004 11:57:00 PM

hmmx. i feel so relax now. cos this type of relationship thingy v fan ren de. worry this worry that. and many things can change because of it. now that i am determine to get over him. i feel so much better. =) like jiahui said. being single have its advantages. know lots of ppl been v sad cos of all this relationship thingy. jux want to tell everyone to jux take a break for a while, and relax. dun keep thinking and thinking until u become v v sad. always sad sad de no good de lehx. muz smile k. the rest jux leave it for the future to decide bahx. shun qi zi ran. everything will turn out fine de. =) if anybody got any prob can message/call me hor. confirm will reply de! haha. =)

jux now i was actually sad de. than i went to friendster. and i saw jiasiu's pic. lolx. is yuan shen they all. one is formal de. and the other one is informal. when i saw the pic, a smile jux appeared. i dunno y, maybe i wif them that time i v happy bahx. can realli enjoy myself. they took that pic during co camp. was realli fun being wif them. enjoyed myself. didn't have any time to think of problems that make me sad. always being entertain. haha. my seniors rawks! luvvvv~them to bits. heex. lolx.

going to stay up tonite for the holland vs sweden match. muz wait till 2.35. alone. if got someone pei wo jiang hua till 2.35 jiu hao le. than wun be so lonely. =( hai. nvm..

so everyone muz take care yah!? smilez! =)

6/26/2004 06:44:00 PM

yah... i know wad is realli going on le. certain. i m kind of determine to forget him bahx. i dun wish to tink bout all this things again. too tiring le. like what i told yh. i want to take a rest for awhile. he say he going to give me a surprise on fri. wonder what it is.. hmmx. nvm..

take care everyone.

Friday, June 25, 2004

6/25/2004 07:59:00 PM

today quite fun. went out wif jiahui.

hai. now no mood to say so much.

i dunno larx. i v v luan. hai. jiahui ask me to accept him. and i sort of know what is happening between some ppl le bahx. maybe it is time for me to fang shou le. i dun wan to but... maybe that is the onli way out bahx. hai.

school opening soon. more problems coming my way. hai. lei le.

take care everyone.

Thursday, June 24, 2004

6/24/2004 10:47:00 PM

hmmx. today hor. met jiahui at wm for lunch. than so coincidental. cos we were in the toilet. the toilet were facing each other. someone open the girls toilet door. i jux look outside. and guess who i saw? yaodong! lolx. so strange lor. than he saw me also. both of us like so shock to see each other. haha. after that saw hannah + cass. before that saw junhao. after that saw yaodong. after that saw sing hwa. lolx. so many ppl. haha. yaodong v funny. lolx. after that we went back to sch. rachel call me. ask me to go and see their concert. at singapore conference hall. rachel, shen yin and yihuan performing. so mi went. cos can pon co. haha. reach dere. sat at the second row. super loud. than the conductor keep looking at me. than he say dunno wad bout standing up and dance de. than they all laugh at me. ><'' haha. overall still not bad. went to bugis. went to jp wif yijun. found out that we got alot of things in common lehx! haha. she say she will jio me out next time. haha. reach home at bout 9.35pm. and oh yah! went to trade-in my handphone ytd. heex.

hai. dui bu qi lehx. i didn't mean to say no when u ask me to go to ur concert de. is cos that time i want to play my cello during co. but hor. today after i reach sch. i didn't feel like playing liao. rachel called. and she ask me to go. so i went. sorry.

hai. v luan now lehx. i dunno wad i m thinking. maybe i m starting to forget him le bahx. the [him] that i like, is not [him] anymore. like change le. hai. i dunno larx. forgetting him. good or bad? fifty fifty bahx. hai.

-complexity-

Sunday, June 20, 2004

6/20/2004 12:03:00 PM

harlow everyone!~ mi come back from camp le!~ hehe. came back ytd. but i was too tired. didn't have enough sleep. ytd i came back. bath. sleep. slept at 4pm and woke up at 9 this morning. had more than enough sleep. haha. so didn't blog ytd.

+ 1st day thursday 17/6/04 +

reach dere. briefing. know our grouping. they rearrange our groups. hai. was so sian lor. mi tio his group. cass say the things so zhun. mi didn't know wad to do. somemore he is my group leader. hai. than down dere sian sian de. we have to eat and play in our groups. after that, we were told classrooms we are suppose to go to. i go 3e4. after that we have sectionals. we down dere slack. than tio from sl. aiyo. after that everybody bad mood lor. we didn't pract much. had lunch. than during combine, we all mi lu. sound v soft. so shen shen ask yuan shen to pei wo men lian. mi keep hearing my name. junhao and him down dere talking bout me. but i dunno bout wad. we play games after that. the games still not bad. quite fun. haha. have to bite the apple from a pail of water without using hand. after that got that ballon thing. mi scare of ballon de. but i jux dun care and play. haha. quite fun. haha. after that got the using chair to transport us to the basketball court. have to rearranage ourselves according to some order. have to pass rubberbands using short straws to the other person. after that got the spiderweb thing. have to transport every group member to the other side. after that finish liao. after that is dinner. bathing time. recreation - get to know group members/play game. after that is lights out. slept with my seniors at 2e3. cant sleep. down dere talking. haha.

+ 2nd day friday 18/6/04 +

woke up. brush teeth. walk around. sat at the carpark dere. wait for 7. got morning exercise. yuan shen lead. run 2 rounds around the school. breakfast. saw kuniyawan! haha. was so happy. dunno y lehx. got one type of wen nuan de feeling. than he sit down and we were talking. jiahui joined us. after that is combine. sectional. lunch. sectional. play games. dinner. bathing time. recreation. lights out at 12. jiahui move over to 2e3. than we walk around. saw something. we ran up. after that we sit on the mattress outside co room. yong quan and ming kun came and talk to us, make us laugh. haha. talk until almost lights out. than we go back. after that we didn't sleep. play and talk. mi fall asleep at bout 1 plus.

+ 3rd day saturday 19/6/04 +

wake up. eat breakfast. clean up. bring bags to needle-work room. sectional. ask rachel buy breakfast. haha. eat. after that we continue to pract. combine. during combine was super fun. haha. cos got ting zien and yuan shen. mi sitting behind them. when we are suppose to pluck, they do some funny actions together. lolx. after that all 5 of us behind them were following them. everybody looking at us. haha. than the whole cello section was like "moving". very into the music. super funny. the song we playing is "sunny island". so when main part, ting zien and yuan shen suddenly stand up and sing. they were shaking their butt. they were in front of me so while they are shaking, i cant see my score properly. i onli can see something moving in front. combine was super fun. ended so fast. after combine. we went down to concourse to take co photo. cello section was standing together. they ask us the second row to bend down a little bit. but onli we bend. we were all leaning on each other. haha. we were making so much noise. haha. yuan shen strech his hand and started tickling my ear. pull my hair. idiot him. haha. after that we went back up to studio. i was sitting down than i suddenly feel something hit my head. i turn around saw yuan shen. he use his leg to kick me. idiot him. haha. after that is debrief. than we are dismiss. went back needle-work room to take our bags. check my hp. saw kor's message! haha. after that i wait for rachel. she pei mi walk home. than she take bus home le.

Wednesday, June 16, 2004

6/16/2004 06:48:00 PM

hai. read/thought through all the memories he gave me. its been a long time since i went through them le. i didn't want to go through them cos i didn't want to start thinking about it. but now, for no reason, i suddenly jux wanted to go through them before i go to camp. hai. going through them.... jux kept me thinking. hai. all that we used to have. seems like they are all gone now. how fast can things change? u will never know. hai. i didn't cherish what we used to have. and now i am regreting it. too late le. hai. realli too late le. maybe what they say is true bahx. shi qu le cai hui zhen xi. [dan shi yi jing tai chi le] hai. will miss everyone de. take care.

shi qu le cai hui zhen xi
yi jing tai chi le

6/16/2004 03:30:00 PM

+ tuesday 15/6/04 +

went out wif jiahui ytd. both of us v fan. hai. was hoping faster school re-open. school re-open than alot of things can be solve le. hai. still got another week. ... ytd when i was taking bus home, something weird happened. cos i sit at the 4 seats facing each other that side. the bus stop at a bus-stop. i jux look out. than this guy look up. he look at me i look at him. for v long. cos got other ppl boarding the bus. than went he board the bus. he walk pass me le. he turn his head and look at me again. next stop i alighting le. so i alight from the bus, the bus drive pass me. and he was looking at me again. weird hor? aiyo. guai guai de. zhen gao bu dong.

+ wednesday 16/6/04 +

hai.

was watching tv jux now. it was showing this love story. v short one. -feng shu ye zi- so touching. hai.

ye zi de li kai

shi ying wei feng de zhui xun

hai shi ying wei shu mei you wan liu

hai.

tink quite meaningful hor?. hai.

mi read another one. also v touching de.

我在夢裡期待

相信自己存在

現實中的無奈

最後終於醒來

眼淚流下

一瞬間明白

我是愛你的

愛著你是我改不了也不愿改的习慣

要放開哪有那么簡單

了解你是我說不出也不承認的悲哀..

包容你是我体諒的愛也當作应該.

[if u see symbols instead of chinese characters, right click, go to encoding, and select Unicode]

tml goin camp le. so sian. no mood to go. wun be blogging for the next few days.

take care everyone.

smilez. =)

Monday, June 14, 2004

6/14/2004 03:17:00 PM

hmmx. later going to cut hair!~

oh yah.

done alot of thinking. hai. xiang lai xiang qu also got no ans. wad for think? aiyo. but i jux cant help thinking bout it. hai. i dunno lehx. if onli he can give me some sort of hint? i dunno. something to tell me. hai. wo bu zhi dao larx. aiya. fan dao yao ming.

thurs camp le. ex-seniors all coming back. tink gonna be fun. hoping to be able to talk to my senior bout some things. think we going to be in diff group? dunno. hope he can "enlighten" me bahx. hai.

i jux need some sort of assurance from u. maybe it will never happen bahx. hai.

[ assurance? ]

Sunday, June 13, 2004

6/13/2004 03:53:00 PM

hai. feeling down now. everything is so different. so so different. hai. i seriously dunno wad to do. zhou she me cai shi dui de?. onli [u] have the answer bahx.

[ < complexity > ]

Saturday, June 12, 2004

6/12/2004 10:00:00 PM

today went for rehearsal. at mandai hill camp. onli plucking, cello and base. reach sch at 8. but so few ppl. saw base de ppl. so mi went together wif them. left at bout 8.45. in the bus. super quiet. at first onli cello and base down dere talking. whole bus was v quiet. was so quiet until we didn't have mood. so we also sian sian de. reach dere quite fast. went up to the multi-purpose hall. prepare. look for our seat. walk around. start at bout 10.30 i tink. dun like the conductor. we onli like the <> conductor. haha. he v good. those funny funny type. lolx. today pluck until i tuo pi again. rehearsal end at about 1 i tink. waited for our bus. talk to ting zien. cos he taking the bus back to sch wif us. borrowed yijun's pipa. lolx. she taught me how to play. her thumb damn flexible. haha. fun. bus arrive. board the bus. on our way back. our section quite noisy. haha. reach school. go storeroom. put our instrument. leave le. went to mac to eat wif my seniors. after that came home. super tired. was playin game de. but too tired. play until i fall asleep. hai. than in the end die. pek. haha. so i jux went to slp after that.

hai. i m sorry. i told him le. i didn't have a choice. i didn't want to drag it any more. hai. dui bu qi. realli v sorry. hai. seeing his nick. i feel v guilty. [where can i get the arrow which is in my heart taken out? [sticking to wad i swore]] <-- this was his nick. hai. i m realli sorry. dui bu qi. hai.

Friday, June 11, 2004

6/11/2004 11:05:00 AM

slept at bout 10 ytd. so manage to wake up early. haha. was too tired le.

+ thursday 10/6/04 +

ytd was fun. haha. early in the morning went to sch. reach sch at 7. door haven open. waited outside. tink we left at 8. ytd onli got gaohu, zhonghu, erhu, cello and base. so they dun have lorry. cello and base have one bus to ourselves. the bus no air-con. than v bumpy. but we tink also quite good. haha. but the bus uncle like guai guai one lehx. lolx. he kept talking to the tcher. until she want us to save her. but we dunno how to save. we reach woodlands le. the uncle talk until he miss a turn. than we mi lu. mi dunno for how long. somemore we also dunno how to go. so jux anyhow turn. we finally saw woodgrove sec. haha. everybody so happy. cos can finally get down the bus le. the tcher told us the uncle was talking to her bout he got how many children, grandchildren. how old his mother and father got married. haha. strange hor.

we reach dere early. so we got time to walk about. than mi send edi message, wishing him happy birthday. haha. he like so happy. haha. somemore mi is the first one to wish him happy birthdy lehx. *so honoured* lolx. rehearsal started. the conductor v cute de. haha. better than the previous one. haha. the other one keep hopping and hopping on the stage. haha. overall the rehearsal was quite successful.

we waited for our bus. than we down dere joke. say the uncle sure mi lu one. in the end he realli mi lu. onli one bus came. haha. mrs lim say let cello and base go back first cos our instrument bigger. than we go up the bus. we so relieve we didn't have to take that bus again. haha. ting zien came back to sch wif us. reach sch at bout 1.35. went to eat lunch at mac. eat until about 2.35. than we went back.

after that heard ppl saying those who went for the rehearsal can go home le. but have to take another new score first. mrs lim ask us go find shen lao shi. we go inside needle work room to take score. saw yuan shen. he hor. aiyo. mi dun wan say. haha. the score 10 pages long lor. going to die liao. so tired. we dismiss liao. we didn't go back. we slack at studio. haha. sit down dere and laugh wif senior. haha. yuan shen say for camp he is group 7 leader. we had a long chat. than most of my seniors went home. i stay at studio than chat wif peili and jiahui. heard from yao dong that jiahui and mi are in the same group. have briefing for camp at the studio. yong quan sat on our left and yao dong sat on our right. jiahui and i were talking to yong quan at first de. than yao dong talk to us. than yong quan talk to us. than yao dong talk to us. we kept turning our head here and dere. haha. when we were laughing hor. than heard yao dong saying : "heng hao xiao mehx." he go pou leng shui lor. than saw ting zien ka jiaoing yuan shen. lolx. after that went to wm. heard from yong da that junhao gonna be my group's assisant group leader. haha. jiahui told yong da i will get excitied. but in the end is she get excitied. lolx.

edi ` happy birthday!~ haha. best wishes to u. =)

+ friday 11/6/04 +

did nth today. tml co no pract. but we have to go rehearsal at mandai hill camp. tink gonna be the same as tues. v fun. haha.

take care everyone!~

smilez. =)

Wednesday, June 09, 2004

6/09/2004 05:05:00 PM

hai. did nth much today. stay at home. slack. kept thinking and thinking.

kor ar. dun so sad k. nvm de. work harder next time. no bad bad things gonna happen to u. cheer up k. got anything can sms me k. tc lots yah? =)

dun feel like going co tml. hai. go rehearsal le, still have to stay for practice. sat also same thing. hai. nvm larx. bo bian.

-complexity-

take care everyone.

Tuesday, June 08, 2004

6/08/2004 10:19:00 PM

wah~ so tired~ came back from rehearsal at bout 9. not bad larx.

+ monday 7/6/04 +

had alot of fun ytd. went to town. suppose to meet jiahui at 10.30. but hor. hehe. mi was late. overslept. mi realli very pig lorz. slp until 1 than wake up. xia dao wo when i see my clock. i got set alarm de lehx. somemore my alarm clock is those type of super loud de. think i press away? lolx. she waited dere for bout 1 hour plus. sorry lehx. i realli too pig liao. dui bu qi. mi lookin for some solution to cure my pig-ness. have anot ar? have muz tell me hor. hehe. i called her up and apoldgise than we met at 2.15pm. went to take mrt. kept playing. haha. went to orchard to eat. met my aunt. ate together. went to see handphone. walk around. my aunt went home. we went to bugis after that. took neoprints. v nice. haha. fun. funny also. i anyhow press than jiahui scold me. but turn out is good lorz. idiot larx u. =P lolx. walk around. walk until bout 7 plus. went to orchard after that. haha. shop somemore. bout 9 plus than we leave. haha. in the mrt talk about next term. next year. hai. wonder wads gonna happen next?.

+ tuesday 8/6/04 +

couldn't slp last nite. turn here turn dere. roll here roll dere. until mi head pain. hai. woke up at around 8 plus. went to eat breakfast wif my aunt and grandma. went to sch at bout 11. left school at 12 plus. in the bus keep playing. have to look after our cello also. cher dun let us put inside lorry. so have to carry ourself. put beside us in the bus. take extra care. cos later drop, than die. reach dere at bout 1.15? went to the multi-purpose hall. stayed dere for bout 5 hours. sian diao. oh yah. one army officer took photo of us. haha. than we nth to do, so joke wif him. haha. [jiahui say he quite cute. lolx.] after that bout 6 than the rehearsal start. so hot + warm. the conductor damn strange de lor. his eng v funny de. lolx. he got try to joke. but not funny de. somemore difficult to understand wad he talking. lolx. cello so many ppl. 100 ppl. than sit in front of conductor. haha. than quite shiok larx. the girl sitting behind me keep dropping her bow de lehx. lolx. damn strange. haha. than got camera man de. haha. nvm. overall not bad. pluck until my finger tuo pi. hai. pain. nvm. use to it le. cello is like that de. haha.

got to know alot of things today. i realli dunno wad to do. they ask me to give him a chance. hai. i also dunno wad to do. didn't realli know how to face him at first. sorry lehx. hai. i was realli blur jux now. confuse. not that i avoiding the question, but i need to know bout wad is realli the topic. cos diff ppl told me diff things. will talk to u about wad u want to know when i see u online next time. cheer up k. dui bu qi for making u so unhappy. hai.

Sunday, June 06, 2004

6/06/2004 04:57:00 PM

back home!~ haha. ytd nv blog. stayed at my cousin's hse.

ytd went to sch for co. end at bout 2+. actually is 1 de. but the conductor v angry wif us. than he walk away. so our ex-senior conduct. actually tink he conduct better. haha. cos he nv scold de. and i know him. cos he is in cello section last time. than now he always come back and guide us de. haha. than this yihuan. keep ka jiao-ing me. asking mi to write write write. [write wad ar? i dun rmb lehx. =P] lolx. before da zhu after da zhu. keep calling me - qian mian de. hor?! lolx. mi purposely dun look behind de. =P lolx. got our shirt for the mega concert. mrs lim brief us on wad is goin to happen on tues during the rehearsal. v idiot de lorz. cos the arrival time is from 1-5[i tink]. than we have to arrive at 1.45. we are the first few to arrive. cos they go by the sch name de. than so qiao our sch start wif "B". diao lorz. than have to wait till bout 6+ than start. sian diao. than we get to go home last. cos they also dismiss the sch by alphabetical order. than the start from behind. so we end up the last to go. first to reach last to go. we practically spend our day dere. at a army camp. diao. hai. nvm.

after co. went out wif my cousins. walk around, play...watch harry potter. v nice show. nice and funny. haha. stayed at my cousin's hse. did sms jiahui also. i told her that wo bu yao fang shou le.

jiahui ` wo bu hui fang shou de. after wad u say. tink is quite true. fang shou or dun fang also make no difference. at least bu fang shou still got ji hui. rmb that time i told u i wanted to fang shou?. from that time onwards, i jux couldn't stop tinking of him. tink until i shi mian. until wo bu xiang fang shou. maybe i wasn't firm enough. or i didn't want to give him up in the first place. i dunno. so i jux changed my mind. and rang ta shun qi zi rang bahx. better rite? take care hor. dun xiang tai duo. one day we go out play k. rang ni wang diao for awhile. cheer up k. smileZ. =)

take care everyone!~

smileZ~ =)

Friday, June 04, 2004

6/04/2004 10:16:00 PM

damn happy today. lolx.

actually suppose to meet jiahui at 12. but than mi overslept. hehe. she call me than i wake up. lolx. hehe. paiseh. =P lolx. slept at 4 last nite. hehe. dun blame me hor. =P lolx. keep calling pig. lolx. so coincidentally we met sherlyn at jp. she was wif her friend. so we decided to walk together. went coffe bean. after that sherlyn and her friend need to go off le. so we jux walk around. went to the pet shop. than saw so many dogs. so kelian lorz. all get locked up in a small cage. no freedom. nth to play. some dogs look so sad. haiz. so cruel siahx. after that we went to take nc. so fun. lolx. 3 times somemore. ><'' no money le. but v fun. haha. went to walk around somemore. after that went home le.

came home. watch tv. mi bro ask me help him play game lorz. first time lehx. lolx. cos i play game always play until v lan de mahx. he better than me jiu dui le. haha. than he play until v pek chek. so ask me help him. in the end i win ok~ so proud of myself. =P lolx. kiddin. come online. read jiahui's blog. read until i want to laugh. [a certain part. *wink*] lolx. now dunno do wad lehx.

tml got co. wah. shit larx. sure kena de. hmmx. nvm. haha. he want to scold scold lorz. dun care. haha. rehearsals next week. tues, thurs, sat. still got camp in sch. sian. 17, 18, 19. maybe senior coming also. dunno.

oh yah. going out wif my cousins tml. gonna watch movie + play + ? + ?. haha.

jiahui ` u gu li wo or wad ar. say hope shen shen dun come. but add : tink is impossible de hor. ><''' haha. take care lots yah? cough until want to cry. haha. tc hor.

sherlyn ` u like not v happy today. you xin shi?. share wif us if have k. dun keep to urself. take care lots.

cheryl ` happy bdae!~ best wishes to u! =)

take care everyone!~

smileZ. =)

[ cant-stop-smiling ]

Thursday, June 03, 2004

6/03/2004 12:53:00 PM

this is wad justin told me: shang xing de hui yi bu duan pai huai zai nao hai li... Wu xian de gan chu jiu zhe yang yong qi yu xing li...

tink it is quite true bahx. [ he ask me understand mahx. i of cos understand =P ]

now whatever he does, i dun care le. although i do mind, i also cannot do/ say anything. so jux leave it as it is bahx.

si mian. -sad- 6/03/2004 02:27:00 AM

-sigh- i-i-i-d-d-d-d-d-d-d-i-i-i-i-i-i-o-o-o-o-o-o-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t!!!!!!!!!~~~~~ haiz.

dunno y. cant get to slp. si mian le. been a long time since i si mian. haiz. lying on my bed, rolling here and dere. but jux couldn't get to slp. tink and tink until i cant get to slp. wanted to stop tinking. but i dunno why. it jux keeps coming back to me. haiz.

was tinking bout all the memories. all lost in the past. everything. we seems so mou shen now. y? i dunno. realli didn't expect it to happen bahx. we are like so far away from each other now. haiz. can i do anything to save it? maybe yes maybe no. onli u have the answer bahx.

all the memories,
lose in the past.
all i tink about,
is u every nite.
when i try not to tink bout u,
i tink bout u even more.
everywhere i go,
everything i do,
it always bring back our memories.
-sigh-
fang le wo bahx.
lei le.

Wednesday, June 02, 2004

6/02/2004 10:15:00 PM

wahz.. sian today. did nth much. play game. watch tv. eat. sleep. same routine. wanted to come online. keep bothering my bro. but useless lehx. end up playing wif him. lolx. actually i tink my bro not bad larx. jux that sometimes abit qian bian. =P lolx.

tml got co! argh!~ si qi dao le. sian. haiz. have to face shen shen again. pek chek. that toopid mega concert lorz. make me practice until like siao. than the shen shen always "threaten" me de. this is wad he always say: "ni hai bu yao hao hao lian! wo bu ba ni de ming fang jing qu ni cai zhi dao / wo ba ni de ming qu xiao diao ni cai zhi dao!" hear until i sian liao. he want to qu xiao than qu xiao lorz. dun care le.

actually hor. mi abit scare lehx. cos mi will jiang meng hua de. so mi scare hor. when i slping, i say out whatever i shouldn't say, than my mom hear le, i die. =X why mi got this type of habit lehx? last time have. but now dunno still have not lehx. aiya. forget it. she want hear let her hear. the most die onli. x.x haha. si le gen hao hor. not so many things to think bout. ur muz be thinking i gonna zhou sa shi or wad. nah. mi gonna treasure life. make every second count. =)

jiahui ar. haiz. mi realli dunno wad to do lehx. tink mi being replace le? haiz. let go or continue? head hurts from all this thinking. tink mi jux gonna take it easy bahx. half of mi have already decided to let go. seeing him happy, i will be happy.

kor ar. take good good care of urself hor. tc lots ya?

kan zhe ni kai xin de yan zi.
wo an an jing jing de li kai.
zu fu zhe ni.

take care everyone.

6/02/2004 01:17:00 AM

wahx.. mi quite happy today. haha.

went out wif jiahui jux now. she was in an abnormal state. ><'' lolx. somebody save me~ haha. than we went back sch to take hist book[cos got hw.] so stupid lorz. was hiding from wall to wall. lolx. dunno wad we doing also lehx. haha. went jp after that. in the bus, jiahui ask me change my template. say v "porn". ><'' hers more porn lorz!~ lolx. mine v nice de ok!~ =P than mi told her bout her nick. mi actually made up my mind de. after seeing her nick, mi was tinking whether i will regret mahx. lolx. nvm. now i dun wan to tink bout all this first. put it aside first bahx. =)

actually going to town, but nv. than was orhing at home. lolx. be a piggie~ *oink* lolx. wake up than went down to have dinner wif my bro. was so hungry. haha.

Gei-

jiahui ` mi not going to change my template!~ =P lolx. true that we all are worried about making the wrong decision and therefore many things will change. mi now v luan. dunno wad to do. wad should i do? let go or...?

sherlyn ` ur blog add lehx? owe us v long le lehx. haha. =P

many reasons to let go
many reasons to hang on

take care everyone!~

smileZ. =)

Tuesday, June 01, 2004

6/01/2004 11:03:00 AM

hmmX.. so sian now lehx.

was feeling kind of touched. cos of something. haiz.

des say i like always encouraging him to relax relax like that. ask him not to worry or wad. haha. will mehx?

later meetin jiahui. after that go watch movie. than i still have to meet my aunt and cousins at town.

gonna be a bz day.

take care everyone!~ =)

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